Each Sunday, Inpatient residents come together in our Spirituality Center to share original poetry, readings, and songs (often composed while at St. Joseph’s) and which are focused on a topic meaningful to recovery.
A recent theme centered around the concept of the courage often necessary to affect significant change in our lives.
To contribute to the morning, Inpatient resident, Amanda W., offered the following poem:
Most days I want to throw my hands up,
but I always tell myself not to give up.
Each minute that passes by,
I wonder more and more why.
Too many times I’ve made bad choices,
while trying to block out the other voices.
I don’t mean about in my head,
I mean about all the fake friends.
The ones I wish were really true,
but they have proved it too hard to be pure.
Sometimes I try more than I should,
hoping and praying they could and would.
I know that they are strong, and I know I’m not wrong.
But it would be too easy for them to agree this life is crazy.
I’ve always hoped to give my best next line not taking too much time to rest.
My hopes and dreams may seem tough and I know the road we take will be rough.
I personally have always wanted to put up a fight.
Maybe as they grow older they’ll want to know how good it feels to be sober.
I hope one day they find the strength and really go to any lengths to help themselves along with possibly someone else.
The struggle is real, at least that’s how I feel.
But if I can make it through, I’m sure they can too.
The sky is the limit,
Stop trying to flip it.
Please put the money and drugs away,
Strive to take it day by day.
My hope for them for days to come, is that they open their eyes and say goodbye to drugs or booze, Or whatever they choose.
In the end they will make their own choice, even if they don’t want to hear my voice.
Read by Amanda W. during a recent Spirituality Gathering